I have to admit I was a little surprised with these doses. I just tried the suicide one and I thought it would be very painfully physically but it wasn't at all. I think it was very peaceful and mellow. I was asphyxiated something like the sex dose but without the sex. It made me pee a lot so I suggest a diaper. Besides that it wasn't bad. But it was sad at the end because I felt very hot like I would got to Hell and some evil presence. Then I begged God to save me and I was lifting myself up towards a light far, far away. Then something pushed me back down, and I heard sad moanings. It was spiritually hard. But I was getting up towards the light at end until I was sucked back into my body. It was strange that when I first tried the death dose, the dying was so hard and painful physically that I had to take painkillers and morphine idoser afterward. But it was worth it because of the spiritual revelation afterward. I was so close to that tunnel of light and could feel such love. Physically it was tough but spiritually it was beautiful/ Twilight is totally painless and you can almost see that white light at the end of the tunnel. It is sad because of the longing for the light. But it is good for beginners. This pack is good for more advanced idosers.